I feel eternity (writing process)
I started writing I Feel Eternity for a class project in September 2022. I had the melody in my head for 2 years, so It felt like it was the right time to come back to it and complete the song. In my mind, it had to have the spirit of freedom, declaration of independence, and finally conquering one’s power. After I moved to Norway, it felt like it was finally the right time to convey those emotions. The song is about leaving an environment full of confusion, difficulties, problems, and darkness, and realizing that sometimes the problem is not you, it’s really what you are surrounded with. Therefore, the moment you change your environment, a big relief, understanding, and ease comes into your mind and soul. It’s about finally understanding yourself and what went wrong before. And one of my favorite feelings: Anger. A healthy form of anger is like a fire, It has the power to transform things for the better.
“Fire, burn me
Till there’s nothing left of the old me.
Burn me to my ashes
And I will rise free.”
This mantra is the skeleton of the song and everything is built on this foundation. This mantra is a prayer, calling out to awaken a powerful figure: the transforming fire. The fire within and everything in life that corresponds to that. This person here is devoted to that power and risks it to destroy everything she knows, even it means the conceptions she has of herself, just so the real things within her can be born. She is willing to sacrifice everything. In the moment where she sings “There’s no going back", the “old” no longer exists, everything is forever changed and the protagonist knows too much to go back to the old self. Now, she doesn’t have to put up faces anymore. Finally, she can exist as herself and create a future from that freedom.
There's no going back
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There's no going back 〰️
For one of our songwriting sessions at UiA, we had Sondre Lerche as our guest and he suggested that the song’s name should be “I Feel Eternity” rather than just “Eternity” because there haven’t been any songs called that title. I liked the idea so I decided to go with that.
